Once the dark of night was dark,
a black sky with stars and perhaps a moon.
Now, what nature had intended
as a time of rest,
has been usurped by man-made lights.
Those outside my window
betray the never-ceasing activity of man.
As I lie there on my bed,
attempting to shut out the light,
ghostly images, welcome or
unbidden, float in
through the filter of my mind.
Are they or I reality?
Phantoms of the past,
of times already lived.
Exempt from time and space,
they surface momentarily
before giving way to others.
They refuse to leave,
lurk half-hidden, waiting for the chance
to emerge once more in a world
to which I had given closure,
or so I thought.
Familiar, nameless faces.
Voices.
Some inhabit still that outer world
but time has left its mark.
Images, words said, unsaid.
The fleeting passage of a kiss, a tear,
a time when they and I were young.
A multitude passing in review.
There is no way to tell them
to go back to whence they came.
They are the shadows of that which was,
of that which might have been.
Some are welcome
but leave me with a feeling of regret.
Reflections of love, both given and received,
reflections of a past I would willingly forget.
Eventually they move back to whence they came,
and the hoped-for oblivion of sleep wins out
until the pressing requirements of every day
break down the barrier of sleep.
Another night will have passed,
the light once more will be that of the sun.
Yes, some days I feel shortchanged on really restful sleep. You have captured the feeling with your usual eloquence! Baci!
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Thanks for sharing this with us – my own experience of memories is like this up to a point, but not wholly so; perhaps it will become more similar as I journey on behind you. Memories from much earlier in life are both welcome and unsettling. I feel you are offering us some survey reports from further along the path. However, already I know exactly what you mean about the night sky.
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Has struck several chords and reminders of the past. A gentle melancholy trip down memory lane.
ATILLA.QQ
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Restless sleep seems to plague me; so I feel understood on some level. The creative mind is a restless mind. (At least that’s what I tell myself to try to explain my issue with it.)
Baci Tesoro,
Tom Tiberio (Gonzagino 1974/75)
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